Anyway, let's get down to it.Work has kind of sucked lately. I originally wrote about a half-page rant to post here, but I then I thought about how little anybody wants to read about somebody else complaining, so I'll cut it down. With the Christmas and New Years donation rushes done, there's very little to do, more community service volunteers than ever. Usually it's my job to find something for them, since outdoor work takes very little training or trust. But seriously, you can only ask a guy to clean furniture or sweep the parking lot so many times.
Also, (permit me just one little rant) I've got to say: I understand completely that what you're saying to me isn't meant to be a criticism, and I'm doing my best to not take it as such. It's a New Years Resolution of mine to be less defensive. But for the love of Pete, all the good intent in the world wont make me feel better if you talk to me like I'm a four year old. It's that perfect mix of imperious and matter-of-fact with just a tinge of incredulous in your voice that makes it sound like you're questioning the entirety of my common sense and judgement each time you tell me to do something. Then I get stressed and peeved, and you get stressed, and everything gets a little worse. Urgh.
Still, I think it's worth saying that this last few weeks may have been a bit worse compared to the week I spent down south. Seeing everybody again (and literally, it was EVERYBODY, which was amazing) made one short week as awesome as it could be. As much fun as the board games and the RPGs and meals out were, I think my favorite night of all was just when we all went and took a walk like we used to. The trip to the Edison and going out for ramen was great; late-night drives for food were loads of fun; and spending hours playing board games and video games is always a good time. But over all, I think honestly what I miss the most was those trips back and forth from dining halls after classes were done, where we could just occupy ourselves and relax. Even if it was in a hurry, or none of us could do anything that night, just having one other person to walk and eat with makes a world of difference. And having everybody like that? That's a memory I'll treasure. Thanks for that, guys.
Also a month late, I'm making a serious push towards healthier living. I can't push off the extra weight as muscle any more, not with how boring work has been, and I think I'd feel a lot better without a heck of a lot of work. Healthier food, more regular workouts, more meditation and reading...as much as the lack of delicious chips will hurt, it's time to get started.
Also, less computer brain-rotting time.
Mmyep.
I think it's time for a bit of a change in the writing department too. The big story I was talking about months ago has all but fallen apart to multiple idea changes and re-writes, and while I think I'll have pieces of it in other things, the bigger project is just about kaput. The last few months have been mostly short stories and vignettes, with some pretty terrible poetry thrown in for good measure. I don't really have a problem with this, and I think there's something about the snapshot quality of a short story that really appeals to me, but I want to be able to carry out a good extended story too. The problem with the old one was that I got too self-critical, and stopped updating when I saw how much was 'wrong' with it. What does this mean? It's time to write bits of something and actually post them where people can read and criticize them. The tricky thing now will be finding somewhere I can post writing that people will read, and that isn't fan fiction. The old group I was in has dissolved, and honestly considering how depressing the writing was, I don't miss it much. I've got a new group I'm a part of too, but I haven't posted anything to it yet. I think it's time to get started.
On that note, I'm also kicking around the idea of starting another blog where I just post writing updates. Think it'll motivate me more, and I would welcome, nigh bloody beg for, criticism from all and sundry. Thoughts?
Anyway, sorry again for a late update. I hope things are going well for everybody. Let's see...aaahhhh not much in the online movie department lately. So let's just call it here.
