Sunday, August 28, 2011

Here's to more than twice-a-year posts.

Hey y'all. So yeah, it's been quite a while. Sorry about that. Hopefully from here on in things will get better. See, I've realized something since school has been finished and the usual great stimulation of 4+ excellent classes and constant good conversation with world-class peers has given way to moving heavy things for a living.

I really, really need to keep writing.

The last post I wrote was a kind of desperate effort of writing something selfish just for ME during the rush of finals, and probably honestly shouldn't have been posted. But hey, there it is, and I'm not going to erase it now. It's just as much an expression of what I need to do than any of the other posts from before, if much more scatterbrained and less well-thought-out. I think the problem with that post was where it said that I don't have the patience for drafting and rewriting. I seemed to think that I suffered from an excess of personal expression and stimulation, and perhaps at Pomona, with classes and friends and high-speed Internet everywhere all the time, I did. Nowadays, where the only reliably great conversations I have tend to be with Mom and Dad (and they are great conversations, thank you Lord for such awesome parents), I really need an outlet for creativity. And, perhaps even more importantly, a criticized outlet for creativity, i.e. someone to look at my work and tell me how it could be better. Teachers and classmates did that before; now, when all of my writing tends to be more story and less academic, there hasn't been much in the way of any real advancement. I'm a harsh critic of my own work, so at least I have that to help my writing improve, but you all know that peer review is an immensely superior means of making progress. That's why all the good schools and universities promote it so much.
So far, the only things I've ever posted were a few pieces of (awful) poetry to an online art site called DeviantArt (a completely public site that's not nearly as bad or dirty as a name like Deviant Art would suggest), so a lot of work has either sat and rotted on my computer or been erased altogether. I've met a lot of good people there (including more than a few I know in real life) who liked my older work, and push me to do more of it, and I've just generally hemmed and hawed with half-assed promises. It's cringe-worthy to me to think I've waited this long, but now I think I've finally realized just how much I need to write to stay happy.
Well, tonight, I sat here in Dad's massage chair and wrote about 1000 words of a story I've wanted to write for some time. I revised it and looked at it along the way, so it took me quite awhile (comparatively) for those 1000 words, more than a few hours. And I had to stop myself to make sure I took a break. I'm in better spirits and I have more energy than I've had since summer began. Heck, I felt good enough to write a blog post.
So, I've got a deal for you all. I promise, here and now on my sacred honor, to write at least one blog post every two weeks for the foreseeable future. In return, you all put up with posts that may be filled with ramblings on what I'm writing IN ADDITION to what's generally going on in my life. Aaaand I'll even promise to make the quality of the posts to come much better than these last two.

So what do you say? Sound good?